REFLECTION: Rev Cecil Murray raised a lot of emotions within me today and provoked many thoughts as he discussed the issues and condition of our world. So I asked myself, “Am I sure what my community is in need of?” No…..I mean yes…..well I don’t know….Actually I have a lot of ideas, but the problem is that none of them seem to be capable of overcoming. So as a result I chose not to know because knowing provokes a response. One of the biggest problems I believe I face as someone who is so passionate for change; is fear. I fear that the problems are too big for me to solve, and they are. I fear that I will make critical mistakes, and I will. I fear that people will think negatively of me, and they will. Fear has the power to paralyze if it is not appropriately addressed. You see the answer is not to fear, but to be aware, because fear paralyzes and awareness awakens. Awareness allows you to look at the mountain in a realistic matter. The truth is we should be aware of the difficulty of changing the world because we might not bring about the right change. We should be aware of the constant struggle and required persistence for change. We must be aware that not everyone will agree with us and most won’t help us. My problem with fear is not the fear in itself, it is the power I give fear that paralyzes me. I must be aware of my fears and confront my fears with an awareness that gives me the courage and necessary intelligent weaponry to propel past my fear and climb over multiply mountains. I must put in the work to overcome, and that’s what I learned today from Rev Cecil Murray.
-Josiah D. Lawhorn